It's one of those nights.

Thank you George Michael for keeping me company.

Thursdays and the weekends are always a little bit harder for me in Paris because Parisians tend to hang out with close friends and family. 

And I am lacking both here.

But things take time.

I was thinking about everything I have accomplished here so far and that cannot be denied. But feeling lonely is inevitable and I have to let it pass. Ride it out. In fact, I have felt the most lonely while being in a serious relationship. So compared to that, it's not so bad right now.

Things that are different about me since I arrived in Paris:

I drink my coffee black.

( I used to have it with milk and equal)

I wear a scarf outside and sometimes inside.

I go most places alone and enjoy it immensely...most of the time ;)

I never go anywhere without my camera or ipod shuffle.

(music really lifts my spirits these days)

I never leave the apartment without blush on.  

I no longer watch t.v.

I get excited every time my French cell phone rings.

I say yes to every invitation I receive.

I stop and smell the flowers on my walks.

 I take two walks a day minimum with my dog, Higgins.

I plan each meal carefully, as the French take pride in their food. Now, I do also.

I have a new appreciation for foreigners in the U.S.A. and everywhere.

I live moment by moment instead of in the past and the future.

I make myself appreciate what I have instead of what I lack.

I love my friends and family more now than ever. They are my backbone and what got me here.

I sometimes dream in French, and other days forget my English.

I sleep much less, but feel much more alive.

I envision what I want and actually go for it.